Thursday, January 24, 2019

Der Tag, an den ich mich informierte


How does the human being react to a sudden information one day?

Two scenarios.
1. He/she won something, be it a Job or a Sports medal or some competition, etc.
2. He/she lost something, be it some loved one/ got to know about some disease/ crashed something, etc.
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Scenario 1

The day I got to know, that my university accepted my application in Warsaw and that I’d be going abroad in three months. I had worked very hard to collect every single document needed prior to applying, which took a load of effort. Going abroad to me was something like getting freedom. I had been a very open guy, trying to put people’s interest first and then mine. This way I let myself be overtaken on several occasions.

But this day was special. My granny, my parents, my sister, friends – everyone had wished that I get through this application process. I had to wait for 2.5 years for this day. The sudden burst of emotions, as I opened the attachment in the mail, which had my offer letter. I had crossed the first step, which was the most crucial one. Getting the visa and other steps seemed to me like a sign of light. It seemed like my wings were open. I remember rushing, I was about to leave from work to home, around 5pm in the Indian time. I went and conveyed the news to Abhi, my best buddy about this. I could see his face going sad. I was happy on one side, I could see the opposite emotions on his face, that his friend would leave him soon. He’s one of the best guys I can boast about having in life.
The big burst of emotions. Something I had not faced before. How did that happen? Do the senses know how to react, best when it is time for?

Scenario 2

I was scrolling through Facebook on 4th September, when I suddenly came across a post on my friend Jayaram’s wall. The post read – Friends, Blood donors needed, A-ve blood group, reason - Leukaemia. The name of the guy sounded familiar, it was a friend of mine from College back home, a guy very social and active, a cricket player and a guy with whom you can simply have a conversation. The moment when a normal system isn’t okay, something is wrong – the senses reacted in a way that I had never come across before. What was it?

The first thing, I’m accustomed to, to first browse through my Phone contacts who’d have this blood and try to connect them. My friends and I usually store contacts in this format, for example, Ganesh Chennai O+ve, it is easy this way, to look for a friend’s blood group in an emergency instantaneously, without needing to panic.

The set of emotions I came through repeated, it was on 19th January 2019, the post read “Jayaram is no more, he will be cremated at 14:30 in Chennai”. I was sitting in a restaurant near home in Warsaw having my lunch. The sudden information seemed to cause great panic in me. I simply couldn’t accept that someone could be taken away in a matter of a few days. One side, understanding the reality of life, the other side, the thought that the person isn’t alive.

Scenario 2B

The day I got to hear, that my dad’s eye check- up couldn’t be made since his blood pressure levels shoot up and later, he had to go to a doctor to know more about it. The voice of a man, who has been your idol, talk in a feeble voice conveying this information. That point of time, when I was waiting for my stay back visa here, without which I can’t leave Poland. The feeling of being tied to a place, when there could be an emergency. The senses knew how to react, it was another feeling that I had never come across. This time, I felt being responsible to make sure everything is okay. Reality is the reality, one needs to live life the way it must be. There is no short cut, there is no detour. There is only one way. One needs to pick it and face it, be it a good or a bad one.

What would be the emotions when I would be confronted with such a situation, one day?



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